Nathalie

..Life makes me wonder. But even more often then that, people make me wonder. About life. I knew going in to this experience thing that it would show me true friends and friends that are jeoulous. I'm not gonna lie, it has been more then a few times when i wonder how some of these people could suprise me so much, over and over again.

We all have friends that are closer and friends that are just "there", if anything i thought that the friends that are just "there" were the ones that would suprise me,the ones that would be jeoulous and back away. But instead that's what one of my closest friends have done. WHY?
I don't seem to ever get an answer to that, i don't ever seem to get it. Instead of being jeoulous, instead of waisting our friendship and bond on that why not be happy for me, still share thigs with me and be a part of my life, in the best possible way. WHY is this not the case?

I know u didn't do anythin, I know that i didn't ruin things. I just want this person to be with me, happy with me, happy for me, share HER life with me, share HER feelings towards it, not hide things. It feels like she doesn't care anymore.Maybe thats how it is. Maybe i missed out on something. MAYBE i found the love of my life but lost the friend of a lifetime? Maybe...
This is what's called growing up.

I hope not, i love her too much. Cause i'm not gonna choose.