Nathalie

My parents are back in la suede now. Feels good to know that they made it home safely and that they had a GREAT time in Chicago. My brother said that it was cool cause they saw cops, firetrucks and ambulances ALL the time. The things that satisfy a 10 year old, it's amazing! He's amazing, my little baby.

I know i have been REALLY lazy and not been writing anything on here for a long time, AGAIN. I'm sorry. There is just alot of things going on, maybe not to do, but alot of thoughts and feelings in my head. I leave soon, but yet it's still not soon soon. I've been doing all diffrent kind of things. Shopping, running, playing basketball, working on C's grandparents farm(hey, if it makes money i'm up for it!), had dinner at Joakim's house, gone to a car race, been to WALMART probably 500 times, put all the music i can on my ipod...it's been, things to do i guess.

You know, it's weird in a way i'm ready to go home like NOW, but it feels weird to even think about that i'm going home, it's crazy, this has been my home for a year. And people here and families here has made me feel home, but you it's still not home home. Except for C's house + family, that is as much home as home in Sweden, isn't that like REALLY weird? Yeah i think it is. But i LOVE IT.
Also, recently, lately, people has been telling me that it's for the best that you break up with the person that you are dating when you go to college or if you are gonna be on two totally diffrent places, far from each other. Why not fight for what you've got, we not hol don to the person you love the most, why not stay woth someone that loves you for YOU, someone that loves everything about you even 10 pounds heavier or 10 pounds lighter, with or without make-up? It's priceless. The things you do for love. Why even be with someone if you think that you are gonna go through life with that person or a relationship with that person if you aren't ready to fight for it? Well, i'm sure as hell ready to do whatever it takes. He is the guy i want to be with, he is the guy i want next to me thrugh good and bad, he is the one guy that has ever made me feel like i'm actually worth something, like i matter, like he is nothing without me. And that feeling is the best feeling i have ever felt, i feel it every time i look into his eyes.

Since this seem to be a really deep blogging time, i need to tell you people that read this that it hurts right now knowing that i won't graduate with me girls, and even more that i wont even be there when they graduate. It sucks, i didn't think that it was gonna be that hard, but it is. It's my girls, i want to be there with them, i want to feel what they feel graduating together, but on the other hand there is things in my life from this year that i never would want undone, such as coming here. But still, you know, it's my girls. But also, most of them don't even seem to care anymore, some of them hasen't cared all year and that proves more things to me then ever before, it shows me exactly what kinda friend that had me as. Alexandra, Helene, Jackie, Emelie you are all girls that has suprised my, and i'm praoud to say that you have all stood by my side this year, through thick and through thin. You are amazing. In a few weeks i will be home again and then you will know where to find me. Love you all.

It's time for a movie.

Wish i was that little sometimes!
(Me in 1990)