Nathalie

Today has been a very emotional day, very very emotional day. But a VERY good day. Me and C have a serious talk, a good talk. About our past, things we have done, feelings we have felt, people talking advantege of you and so on. I said things that i have needed to say, things that will make it easier for him to understand ME, Nathalie. Now he will know why some things scares me, when he says some things or when he acts in a certain way. It's not a low point in our relationship, it's a high point, cause now we know, now we know the answers to things that we in the quiet have always wondered. Now we know.

I know though that their is some things to do deal with when i get home, some things i need to tell and talk to people about.

Today someone aske me how it feels to be leaving so "soon", and i didn't even think for a secund, i just said "i need the city, i NEED it". Ohh god do i miss walking the streets on Drottning gatan, the streets that takes me from Mom to Dad, From Dad to Alexandra, Dad to Solna Hallen, The buss to school...ohhh!

C, I love you!
Sweden i miss you!