Nathalie

I never did anything to hurt you, I never wrote anything to tell you what to do or not to do. I'm not a part of your life right now and i have no saying. I never meant for you or anyone else to think that you were a bad boyfriend, you were the best there is, thorugh good and bad, whatever it might have been you were there even if we were oceans apart no one was there for me like you were... if you would have been a bad boyfriend letting go wouldent have been hard, it wouldent hurt this much and it wouldent even matter. It matters, you matter, it hurts, it's hard to let you go when i dont want to, but im letting you go cause thats what you want me to do, im letting go cause you see nothing for us. I'm letting you go because i have to not because i want to, i'm letting you go because you want me to. So all i'm doing right now i'm doing for you, even though you might not think so. I want you to be happy, i want to be happy too, but i think our happy is diffrent happy. I just want us in the future to be happy with one another, whatever relationship that might be. I would give you the world if i could and all that you wanted. Maybe i should just let you go so that there is an opening for us in the future, so that i can keep you in my life, so that i can get you back in my life later on...so what we had isn't destroyed by us at this point. I'm letting you go.