Nathalie

Not every day is a good day, the days you wake up and you feel like your head is about ready to explode or the days when your throat is just a piece of work is not good days. And today it is not a good day. C just left for school and i should get started with my work, so i get it done. It is not the most productive or creative things i get to do right now, there is a lot of copy and pasting but hey the things you do for money. There is still a few people i havent seen that i need/want to see, so im thinking i need to get that done today as well. Girls, Jess and A if you read this, how is our group work coming along?!

Well last night we went to the girls VB game, fun...they didnt play all too good though i think and their coach is not coaching in a good way i would say. I have been in sports and teamsports for so long that im just not feeling it with him, if a girl sucks TAKE HER OUT dont keep her in there cause of her name or what her parents might say, play the girls that deserves to play and give people a chance to prove what they got. I guess nothing has changes since last year with the coaching here. We also went to see C's grandma, she is the cutest lady, adorable.

Jess, i soooooooooooo want to know what is going on and how everything is going it is awesome that you sound so happy though!

Well, work time, talk to you later.

Im donw with my work for today, did four hours of work in 2.5. GREAT. C woke me up this morning when he got up, just so that we could cuddle for a  bit. I was tiiiiiired, but it was way worth it, then i was up so i might as well just get my work done, right? Im thinking i need to go out for a power walk but im not sure how much i can do cause of my cold, and i dont have enough caugh medicine for too long so i might as well just have to wait. Then i will just watch movies and lay around, when C gets home after school we might get going and do something, then tonight there is a VB game going on, go FiLLIES! Well, time to get something done.

Talk to you later. Love.

Well, it toook me several hours to get here. But im here now. Yupp, at Chadlys. Walking out of the airplane and seeing Ca and Ki was the greatest feeling. Coming to the game last night was awesome. Stepping out on that field was breathtaking and seeing C was....undescibable. Meeting all the people like H and J and...WOW! I dont even know what to say or. It was all GREAT! I hope i get to see some more of people but im pretty sure i will, im staying for a while, so. Well, i havent even seen everyone yet. Time will come for that too. Time to go and get some more pumpkins and then stop by the woman that is working for EF. No time to waste, we have also been out on a WALK cause it's about 80F out, which is 25 C...GOSH, did i bring great weather or not! YEAH YEAH!

Undescibable feeling, me and C when we first meet after i suprise arrived.

It is the last day before the weekend that i am at work. YEAH. I guess it is work tomorrow but all that is going to be done is that we are leaving for a team building thing, it will be some sweet fun. I feel more positive today actually. I guess that is a good thing! :-)

Im meeting up with my mom for lunch in a bit. Mean while i am waiting for H to send over the corrections that she made on one of my essay or articles thingys for school. Will probably meet up with A today too, she is off work and yeah she is my partner in crime. Hahah. Seems like we will have some kind of reunion thing with my old class in mid November too...hmm, probably be fun!

Gotta get going, get some last things done before i leave.
LOVE!

I have come to the very true and not so intresting that i am a shopaholic, despite this i have more then plenty money on my savings account and for the trip over to C in a few weeks  or so. And i have more then enough money for xmas gifts...hmmm, how did i pull that off? Honestly i dont know, but i am thinking that even if i am a shopaholic i am a smart shopaholic which most be better then a dumb one cause trust me a know some of the dumb ones.

Going down to our big supermarrket later to buy candy and ballerinas, if you dont know what it is you need to figure out what it is. LOVEIN things....!! :-)

Time for some homework first.

Later!



This is also as you can see, the picture that is supposed to be on my profile!

Yeah im lost. This week is one of the slowest ever. My heart and soul goes out to J, who just lost a close uncle, and to Jess who is heartbroken but still so happy, and to S cause a person in her family yesterday was in a car accident and to my lovely H cause i cancelled our date yesterday and she was in a car accident. I hope you all will be fine, even if i KNOW that you all and your loved ones will be fine. You are all that great and all that strong.

I'm sick. I dont feel good and this week sucks.... i just dont know why. I guess it is cause i am sick and cause there is like nothing to do at work or..anything but yet im sooo busy. Owell, WEIRD!

Keep going, rock on.

My brother called me today, asking for my opinion and in a way askiing me to save something that went totally wrong. I will leave it to that. But the bond that my brother and i have is something that i cherish very deeply and that i am honored and proud to have. He is the sweetest and most charming young boy there is and i dont know what i would do or where i would be without him. He lights up my life and all the people around him.

With that i will leave and go and lay in bed, hopefully fall asleep early too! Enjoy the rest of your night.

Baby boo i love you!!

 Much love!

Looooong day, but tomorrow will be even longer, im soo sooo soooo eager for it to be weekend, or atleast friday so that i can sleep in. Ha, yeah right cause Nathalie forgot that she has a work thing Friday and Staurday so guess what? She wont to any sleeping at all probably it will probably just be a looooong party both days, even if it is said that it is a teambuilding weekend. People, sometimes i wish i could just turn the clock off and for once just sleeeep. Seems like i cant sleep in all that much anymore, the other day when i slept int til 11:30 am was the longest i have slept in a year or more, in ONE YEAR. What is wrong with me? Or is it the people that sleep that long EVERY weekend or EVERY chance they get that has a problem...? Hmm....who knows!

Anyways, im ready for a looooong bath followed by some TV, "house" is one today and i just love Omar Epps, LOVE(No, not like you though C, cause you are real and you have so much more!).
Yupp, talk to you later!

It is Tuesday and a few days lef ttil the weekend. Too bad. I wish it was here now. I need my weekend. Im getting sick, wokr up at 03:30 am last night, horrible, i could not go back to sleep, my throut is HUGE, my ears aches and im constatnt sweating and coughing, owell i guess. It's only Tuesday. ARGHHH!! 

Im at work, it's slooooow today, very very slow. Butu it is almoust lunch, sad things is that i am not even hungry. But i know, i have to eat and i will eat. Indian food, leftovers from my lunch yesterday. 

And people, when i write in my blog i write to get to write my feelings off, i am not accusing anyone or such. Just leave comments to yourself and if i had a problem with someone i would let you know, and it would not be here on my blog. 

Have a good day!  

It has been a calm day at work, me an my co-worker actually got a gift from our boss today cause we have been increasing our numbers so much, two movie tickets each, AWESOME! I will defentaley use those soon, i feel like i am in need of a movie with lots of popcorn and candy and..yumm. .-) Just got home from the doctor, had an appointment, it went okay. A bit scary but it feels like we are atleast going somewhere with it now. Im going to study for a few hours and then it's gym time, maybe even play some bball who knows?

Have a great afternoon people, cause i hope i will!!

 Me with my favourite stuffed animal, we were inseparable. LOVE!

It's mid october, the sun is shining this birds are singing and it is a regualr saturday in my life. Or, yeah. I woke up waaaaay to early this morning, i wish i could have slept and hour and a half longer, at least. I went out for a powerwalk since my throat is still kinda sore, it hurt every other day or so, it was dang cold when i got outside, then i did get ready and had brunch and then i went to a bball game. It was a really really bad game but it was still fun to see, and think about how good i would on that team if i played with them...haha! Went to the mall after that to get a few things and now here i am. A and i were supposed to hang out all day after the game, but she had a wild night and i guess i wont see her today either, it sucks!! So here i am and im thinking i am gonna get some studying done, the worst part is that i cant really find and good fact, so we will see how it goes and what happens with my staurday night.

Have a good afternoon!

I have lived as much of a basketball life that you possible can, including the drama, the who did what, the she sucks at this or that and...yeah you name it basically. People have trashed talked me, i have trashed talked people too, it is like it's a part of the game, but really it's not. I wish at times that i could turn back the time til when i was 12 and the only thing we worried about was who we were playing and if they were good or not...either way, we would beat them. But im not 12 anymore and i dont play basketball anymore. Tonight at the game i missed playing, being a part of it but on the other hand i think back about the last year before i left for the US. The last thing that that year was was easy. My world fell apart, at least that's what i thought. The year started out great, i meet a guy ofcurse he was a pro basketball player, we fell in love and dated inoficially, why share something that would give people somehing to talk about? Well, things didnt go to good, he obvioulst cheated on me with a friend of mine, or that is what i have heard, he wont tell me and neither will she, but it was obvious i dont know how i couldent see it when it was right there infront of me. It broke my heart i was devestaed but didnt show anything to the rest of the world, but i was crying on the inside every day, and usually when i was at home too. At the same time i was fighting to recover after a loooong struggel with a quit usual diseases, but ohh so complicated, i wanted to get back out on that floor so bad, shoot, dribbel and have fun, with a new coach on the team i was on, i doubted what to do. After christmas i just went with it and started playing, it helped my recent heartbreak to heel...i thought. I got back out there and i got not happy but fine again.

Going back to that world again tonight, if even just for a night was.... complicated and akward in one way. There is so many questions i would like to ask people, there is so many situations i dont know how to handle, cause i have never handled them like that before, or never had to worry about being in those situations. Sounds like tonight was nothing but bad, but it was hard and at one time it felt like i just had to get out of there to be able to breath again, and to be respected for me, for being Nathalie, not for the player i could have been, the talent im wasting by not playing or how i look, but for being Nathalie,me.

This is the always returning dilemma in swedish basketball, maybe not for everyone, maybe people have it all figured out, but i dont. And tonight sure didnt make it easier.

Sorry for the text being so long, i needed to get it out of me. Have a great friday night, im gonna go to the store and get some magazines and lay in bed and read some tabloids. LOVE!

 Me, several years agao!

Im going to a bball game tonioght. I havent seen Solna play in a year and a half, but now im back and me and S are having a bball date. It will be fun. Alot of people i havent seen for a loooooong time, people to catch up with, mingle with and....laugh with, but most of all, S is there and we will spend some quality time. YEAH! I just got back from the gym and S is coming to pick me up in like no time, i better get going!

Have a great friday night!

 Maybe i will see some like this tonight? Probably not.

I was looking through my pictures on the computer and found some of my absolute favourites of me as a little girl, and i figured iw ould show some that is with me and my Mom, Dad and Bonus dad. LOVE!

 
 
 

This morning when i walked outside the door i got chocked, ohh my, the winter is slowly coming and this morning it was like it was already here. I dont even own a winter coat at the moment, maybe MAYBE i will find one in the US later, and i dont want to get one here until i know if there is one or two that i like ther. SUCKS!! Time better start going fast. GOSH!

But today is a "i want to cuddle and have fun and just mess around with C day", gosh do i miss him. I wish i could see him, see him smile, laugh, have him make me smile, laugh and feel loved from the very edge of my toes to the very last hair on my head....but i guess i dont need him here to do that, he makes me feel like i am the only girl in the world every day. It seems like as the weather is getting colder, people are getting more and more in need of love, cuddling and so on, and even though he is not here i know that is what i need too. Ohh time better pass by fast! Love you my one and only.

Friendships are everlasting, or that is what we think. Some are and some turn out to not be everlasting but yet a helpful piece in your life, where you got loved and and love, a piece that is meaningful in it's own way, even though it is now over. I have had friendships that has turned out like this, and they still mean something and those persons still mean something, so at times, it is everything but easy to have let a person like that go, even if you hated eachother from the bottom of your heart, your soul....everything, even if you think you couldent stand seeing that person ever again, when it comes down to it, no matter how much that person have hurt you and you hurt that person she/he still mean something. And in the end, THAT is what matters.

Sometimes it is nice to see that even celebreties have to work out to look good. Well, even if we know that the amount of hours they can spend in the gym is waaaay more then us, the rest of the world, can do. Then that they also have the money to do surgerys for this and that, but who wants to have a surgery instead of going to th egym? Hmm..NOT me.

 Jessica Biel and Justin Timberlake
 Jessica Simpson after a work out

Just had dinner. Just got back from the store. Just got the new cosmo in my hands. It is time for a bath, ohh so well needed. It is cold outside, im cold on both the inside and the outside. Had a quiz thing in school today, went well, and then we were done. I guess just one of those days. Two days left and then no school for another 6 weeks...ohh heaven is close.

Bath time!

I have come to one conclusion this morning. (WOW!) I will no longer put outfit pictures up. I like when other people do it, but i am not too good to keep up with it, so its just something that comes and goes at times, and to say the truth, i dont feel comfortable putting them up. If you want to see what im wearing, come and see me instead.

That felt good. Ofcurse i will put up outfits that i really really like if there is something that i feel that i want to show you.

People, some days work is harder then other days.

Love.

 

Haha, this as some good time love!

Here is a list that i got from Malin (http://xxmalin.blogg.se/you)  are suposed to fill in the movies that you like/have seen, and when you add them up and IF you get over 80 you arew oficially a movie geek! Let's go!
[ ] Rocky Horror Picture Show
[x] Grease
[ ] Pirates of the Caribbean
[ ] Boondock Saints
[x] The Mexican
[ ] Fight Club
[ ] Starsky and Hutch
[ ] Neverending Story
[ ] Blazing Saddles
[ ] Airplane
Total: 2

[ ] The Princess Bride
[ ] AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
[ ] Napoleon Dynamite
[ ] Labyrinth
[x] Saw
[x] Saw II
[x] Saw III
[ ] White Noise
[ ] White Oleander
[ ] Anger Management
[x] 50 First Dates
Total:4

[ ] Scream
[ ] Scream 2
[ ] Scream 3
[ ] Scary Movie
[ ] Scary Movie 2
[ ] Scary Movie 3
[x] American Pie
[x] American Pie 2
[x] American Wedding
[x] American Pie Band Camp
[x] American Pie The Naked Mile
Total:5

[ ] Harry Potter
[ ] Harry Potter 2
[´] Harry Potter 3
[ ] Harry Potter 4
[ ] Resident Evil
[ ] Resident Evil 2
[x] The Wedding Singer
[ ] Little Black Book
[ ] The Village
[ ] Lilo & Stitch
[ ] Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
Total:1

[x] Finding Nemo
[ ] Finding Neverland
[ ] Signs
[x] The Grinch
[ ] Texas Chainsaw Massacre
[ ] White Chicks
[ ] Butterfly Effect
[x] Thirteen Going on 30
[ ] I, Robot
Total:3

[ ] Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
[ ] Universal Soldier
[ ] A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[x] Along Came Polly
[ ] Deep Impact
[ ] KingPin
[x] Never Been Kissed
[x] Meet The Parents
[x] Meet the Fockers
[ ] Eight Crazy Nights
[ ] Joe Dirt
Total:4

[x] A Cinderella Story
[x] The Terminal
[x] The Lizzie McGuire Movie
[ ] Passport to Paris
[x] Dumb & Dumber
[ ] Dumb & Dumberer
[ ] Final Destination
[ ] Final Destination 2
[ ] Final Destination 3
[ ] Halloween
[ ] The Ring
[ ] The Ring 2
Total:4

[ ] Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
[ ] Practical Magic
[ ] Chicago
[ ] Ghost Ship
[ ] From Hell
[ ] Hellboy
[ ] Secret Window
[x] The Whole Nine Yards
Total:1

[ ] Troy
[x] The Day After Tomorrow
[ ] Child's Play
[ ] Seed of Chucky
[ ] Bride of Chucky
[x] Ten Things I Hate About You
[x] Just Married
[ ] Gothica
[ ] Nightmare on Elm Street
[ ] Sixteen Candles
[x] Remember the Titans
[x] Coach Carter
Total:5

[ ] Bad Boys
[ ] Bad Boys 2
[ ] Joy Ride
[x] Seven
[x] Ocean's Eleven
[x] Ocean's Twelve
[ ] Identity
[ ] Lone Star
[ ] Bedazzled
[ ] Predator I
[ ] Predator II
[ ] Alien V.S Predator
Total:3

[x] Independence Day
[ ] Cujo
[ ] A Bronx Tale
[ ] Darkness Falls
[ ] Christine
[x] ET
[ ] Children of the Corn
[x] My Boss' Daughter
[x] Maid in Manhattan
[ ] Frailty
Total:4

[ ] Best Bet
[x] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[x] She's All That
[ ] Calendar Girls
[ ] Sideways
[ ] Mars Attacks
[ ] Event Horizon
[ ] Ever After
[x] Forrest Gump
[ ] Big Trouble in Little China
Total:3

[ ] X-Men
[ ] X2
[ ] Spider-Man
[ ] Spider-Man 2
[ ] Sky High
[ ] Jeepers Creepers
[ ] Jeepers Creepers 2
[x] Catch Me If You Can
[ ] The Others
[ ] Freaky Friday
[ ] Reign of Fire
[x] Cruel Intentions
[ ] Cruel Intentions 2
[ ] The Hot Chick
Total:2

[ ] Swimfan
[ ] Miracle
[x] Old School
[x] The Notebook
[ ] K-Pax
[ ] Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
[ ] Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
[ ] Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
[x] Walk to remember
[ ] Boogeyman
Total:3

[x] Hitch
[ ] The Fifth Element
[ ] Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
[ ] Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
[ ] Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
[ ] Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
[ ] Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
[ ] Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
[ ] Troop Beverly Hills
[ ] Swimming with Sharks
Total:1

[ ] Air Force One
[ ] For Richer or Poorer
[ ] Transporter
[ ] Transporter 2
[ ] People Under the Stairs
[ ] Blue Velvet
[x] Sound of Music
[x] Parent Trap Re-make
[ ] The Birds
[ ] The Terminator
[ ] Terminator-2
[ ] T-3
Total:2

[ ] Empire Records
[ ] SLC Punk
[ ] Meet Joe Black
[x] Nightmare Before Christmas
[ ] The Silence of the Lambs
[x] Sleepy Hollow
[ ] I Heart Huckabees
[ ] 24 Hour Party People
[ ] Blood In Blood Out
Total:2

[ ] Thirteen
[ ] Manic
[x] American History X
[x] Deep Blue Sea
[x] George of the Jungle
[ ] Canadian Bacon
[ ] How High
[ ] The Jacket
[ ] My little pony 1986
Total:3

[x] Road to perdition
[ ] Jesus Christ Superstar
[ ] Rent
[x] Mulan
[ ] Mulan 2
[x] Lion king
[x] Lion King 2
[x] Lion King 3 Hakuna Matata
[x] Legally blonde
[x] Legally blonde 2
[ ] Pink Panther
Total:7

Total: 59 (i think!)

Am i not a movie dork now? Yeah! Haha. But really who cares?