Unbeliveble.
It's crazy how unbeliveble quickly things can really change. Haha. It's funny, that's what it is.
Im happy though and this is a battle. A battle i will win. Whatever win means in thi sistuation.
I will figure it out.
I will work it out.
" As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit. "
Im happy though and this is a battle. A battle i will win. Whatever win means in thi sistuation.
I will figure it out.
I will work it out.
" As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit. "
Hmm..!!
Thoughts. Feelings. Right. Wrong. If's. But. What if. How come. Why. Forbidden. Unknown territory. Dangerous. Lovely. And totally amazing. At the time. That's all there is to it. And probably will be.
I like the feeling it gives me though. And i like what it does to me. What it gives me. And how you look at me.
How do you know all there is to it is physical attraction and nothing else?
I like the feeling it gives me though. And i like what it does to me. What it gives me. And how you look at me.
How do you know all there is to it is physical attraction and nothing else?
Im lovin it.
It's weird how right something can feel that is so wrong. I guess then it's the right kind of wrong?
Living life to the fullest.
Living life to the fullest.
That's what it is.
I don't think it is as much getting over someone as it is to learn to live with it.
Wow, working again!
Last week before i go back to "normal" again, meaning school and work and all the other things i have too. Trying to enjoy it all the way, work but not work too much, spend time with my dear friends...and stay out of trubbel.
When things are over, they should really be over...but are they ever really over?
Im trying to get things into a perspective, but it's not the easiest thing to do, but i think i'm on my way to get things straigthened out and it actually feels good. It actually does feel good.
Well time to get back to work again, and then lunch with my lovely Grandma!
Catch you guys later!
When things are over, they should really be over...but are they ever really over?
Im trying to get things into a perspective, but it's not the easiest thing to do, but i think i'm on my way to get things straigthened out and it actually feels good. It actually does feel good.
Well time to get back to work again, and then lunch with my lovely Grandma!
Catch you guys later!
Questioning exsisting.
Sometimes what you want isn't what you get. But sometimes what you want is exactly what you get.
" What goes on between us no-one has to know. This is a private show "
- Great line from Rihanna's song "Don't stop the Music"
Hmm...now what?
" What goes on between us no-one has to know. This is a private show "
- Great line from Rihanna's song "Don't stop the Music"
Hmm...now what?
Every now and then.
At times some things you have thought about for a longer time really hits you when you don't think it will. It happend to me. I came to realisation about something i should have understood quite some time ago, now i get it, now i understand and...it's actually nothing but fine. It's okay. I'm okay. I'm more than okay most of the time. Now i just know. But it hit me, at a weird time and when i didnt really expect it to hit, or to even think about it. Sometimes it's really weird how you get things figured out. But ohh so good that you actually do get them figured out. Accidentily or on purpose. Life has a funny way of showing and proving things sometimes. It's all part of the game. It's time to hit play again.
Cause it's your bday.
It's a friend of mines bday today. Happy bday to you! :-)
Is it this or is it that?
Why are things so complicated, or is it so that we make things complicated...or at least alot more complicated than they are? Yeah, i think so, cause seriously, some things can not be so freaking complicated? I know they are not, so i guess by that i also know that it's me, or someone else, making them that complicated. The real question then is, why? And to that...i have no answer non what so ever. Weird. It's weird how weird thngs really are, or how weird we make them?
Complicated. Weird. Complicated. Weird. Complicated. Weird. Complicated. Weird. Complicated. Weird.
Crush
Mandy Moore? Yeah well, she's got some good songs, and don't just watching this video/videos give you a little butterfly feeling somewhere, deep, in your stomach? For me it does. Cause of the past or what is...i dont know.
Sometimes.
Sometimes i just want to do something that's just for me. Do something that no one else has to care about, worry about or even think about. Something that i do because i want to, because i need to and because i can. And no, i don't know what that could ever possible be.
The love i have for you.
You are great, you are the best... and the love i have for you is amazing and the greatest there is!
Nathalie <3 Ludvig
Nothing but pure love. You are the best baby brother that there is!
Nothing but pure love. You are the best baby brother that there is!
Isn't weird?
It's weird how it feels like some things never comes to an end, like some things and some people will always be in your life...no matter what. But it's even more weird how it feels like some things makes no sense at all, how some happenings, some situations, deicsions and such comes out of the blue..without any supporting, well without anything around it that makes it really clear and/or obvioius. Okay that people think and feel different things and that that's what makes people make decisions that to others makes no sense, it's probably the way it is. But seriously, isn't so that we try to do all we can, ask a million questions if that what it takes to get the answers to the questions...answers that might contribute to a higher understanding of the decision that has been made. I just don't get it though, i just don't understand and i don't think i ever will, not now and not later on, but that's okay, there are quite some things that i have done myself that i don't understand...esepcially latelt i guess.
Saba and i had a great night out last night, some cozy girl time with some non alcoholic drinks. FUN. We tyalked a whole lot and some things we have answers too...and others we don't, one thing we don't really get is... no one never really told us how things would get, how things would be. And here we are, both of us in opposite situations. What would you do without your lovely ladies? You are all winners in my eyes.
Saba and i had a great night out last night, some cozy girl time with some non alcoholic drinks. FUN. We tyalked a whole lot and some things we have answers too...and others we don't, one thing we don't really get is... no one never really told us how things would get, how things would be. And here we are, both of us in opposite situations. What would you do without your lovely ladies? You are all winners in my eyes.
Picture update!
Elina's bday party and...all kinds of celebrations night was about two weeks ago, but im nbot so good at picture updating. Here are some pictures of me and some of my girls though. Crazy times. Love you all!!
Two can play this game(?!)
So, i have mentioned it before, this whole game playing thing between boys and girls...and the game is constantly on. I guess i had forgotten parts of the game, i guess saying that im saying i have forgotten some of the unspoken rules, but im back and i guess...that two can play this game? I think that for us to really get it together, to really be able to get closer to one another playing "the" game at first, gives us an opportunity to really take one step at a time, see where it takes us and later on the gard that we put up in defense in the beginning, we are able to take down. So maybe that's what it is, and maybe the qoute "don't hate the player, hate the game" is really what it's all about. But then why are we really playing these games? If we start a relationship by playing games, by maybe not showing what it sis that you will really get, then do we really ever stop playing "the"/"a" game with that person? And how do we know when it's no longer a game, but maybe actually for real? How do we really know....and do we ever want to bring it up to discussion or is that when it becomes, hmm.. game over?
Long weekend right around the corner!
Heads up people...easter is here and we have almoust 5 days off...i think these days will be great! I'm going to try to get some studying out of the way but still have a few fun days with my friends, go nowehere but everywhere, see people that i haven't seen for quite some time, starting in a about an hour actually, lunch with the lovely Miss. H!
Just another 40 min left of work. I might stop in again before i leave!!
Just another 40 min left of work. I might stop in again before i leave!!
Being emotional, or realistic?
It's a short day at work today and let me tell you it's pretty nice. I don't have a ton to do, so i have been going through alot of my old blog entries. It's weird to look back, it gives me a weird feeling... something in my whole body changes and... I can't really explain it, but it's just that little something there. Just a little.
This is on of the things i got stuck on, a text msg that i recieved a week or so before i left to go back home. I guess what he says it's true, even if it didn't end up that way..you probably always have someone that walks with you, whatever road you take, all through life.
(http://nathalienystrom.blogg.se/m_052007.html) Read the text "I didn't freakin know"
This is what was in it. And no, i'm stuck, and i'm not not trying to move on, im dealing with it.
Look what my love send me so i had it on my phone when i woke up this morning.
" Hey my love,i was thinking about how i could say this kinda romantic since it's in front of YOUR house. - our life together will always be perfect walking down our road even though there is construction and you take one detour and i take a diffrent one(meaning you in sweden and me here), but when the short detour is over, everytime it directs us back on the main road abnd our road we are going to to live and look forwward too! Remember that this detour is only a small travel compared to the length of the road. It may take a year or two but i'm ready and willing to do whatever it takes to keep you walking and ending your detour where mine also ends, and we go back to living together and then keep walking on to marriage and whatever our life has at hand, but together hand in hand. All for for my love who is the most amazing young women in the world!"
Some things really does change!
This is on of the things i got stuck on, a text msg that i recieved a week or so before i left to go back home. I guess what he says it's true, even if it didn't end up that way..you probably always have someone that walks with you, whatever road you take, all through life.
(http://nathalienystrom.blogg.se/m_052007.html) Read the text "I didn't freakin know"
This is what was in it. And no, i'm stuck, and i'm not not trying to move on, im dealing with it.
Look what my love send me so i had it on my phone when i woke up this morning.
" Hey my love,i was thinking about how i could say this kinda romantic since it's in front of YOUR house. - our life together will always be perfect walking down our road even though there is construction and you take one detour and i take a diffrent one(meaning you in sweden and me here), but when the short detour is over, everytime it directs us back on the main road abnd our road we are going to to live and look forwward too! Remember that this detour is only a small travel compared to the length of the road. It may take a year or two but i'm ready and willing to do whatever it takes to keep you walking and ending your detour where mine also ends, and we go back to living together and then keep walking on to marriage and whatever our life has at hand, but together hand in hand. All for for my love who is the most amazing young women in the world!"
Some things really does change!
Sometimes.
Sometimes it's just a feeling that i get. Sometimes i don't really know what to do with it or how to deal with it. But i guess i like the feeling i get. I think i like the feeling i get.
Live, learn and?
" Just keep your mind open and suck in the experience and if it hurts you, it was probably worth it"
