Something new, something better
So i've recently been writing kinda "depressing" or sad texts, that's how i've felt though. The VA teck shooting really made me think, about me, my life, my friends and so on and for a part of it, it scared me ALOT knowing i could lose some of them in such a thing. There for, i'm gonna TRY to write an more enjoyable text this time, more positive and cheerfull. But about what?
Well, i have aproximately 9 days left in school, if i count the days we are off, the days i have track, and 9 days, it's like no days at all. It will pass...FAST!
It's scary, sitting here thinking about it. It feels like yesterday that i stepped of the airplane in Lincoln, it feels like yesterday that i first met everyone the first day in school, forever since i went to my first wedding here. It feels like i just saw my first American football game, since i tried playing volley ball(haha, didn't miss much), like it was just yesterday that i met Chad and he took my heat to always love and protect me. Feels like i just had my first semester finals in ALL my classes(wasen't even bad!!). Forever since i played my first basketball game, since i've been sick(it's true, never sick here, don't ask why!). It just feels like...everything has passed so fast, like some things are coming to an end.
Some things are not though., Chad will alwyas be with me. Some friendships are everlasting. And i know, for a fact that i will be coming back here, sooner then i ever thought.
This year has probably been the hardest and most emotionally challenging year in my life. I have learned SOOOO much about people but mostly about myself. I'm proud of being me, and i know that there is nothing wrong with me. I'm stubborn, yes, but THAT shoulden't be the end of the world. But as seen as a whole years this has been one of the best years of my life, i have found out and got things and charcteristics
Well, i have aproximately 9 days left in school, if i count the days we are off, the days i have track, and 9 days, it's like no days at all. It will pass...FAST!
It's scary, sitting here thinking about it. It feels like yesterday that i stepped of the airplane in Lincoln, it feels like yesterday that i first met everyone the first day in school, forever since i went to my first wedding here. It feels like i just saw my first American football game, since i tried playing volley ball(haha, didn't miss much), like it was just yesterday that i met Chad and he took my heat to always love and protect me. Feels like i just had my first semester finals in ALL my classes(wasen't even bad!!). Forever since i played my first basketball game, since i've been sick(it's true, never sick here, don't ask why!). It just feels like...everything has passed so fast, like some things are coming to an end.
Some things are not though., Chad will alwyas be with me. Some friendships are everlasting. And i know, for a fact that i will be coming back here, sooner then i ever thought.
This year has probably been the hardest and most emotionally challenging year in my life. I have learned SOOOO much about people but mostly about myself. I'm proud of being me, and i know that there is nothing wrong with me. I'm stubborn, yes, but THAT shoulden't be the end of the world. But as seen as a whole years this has been one of the best years of my life, i have found out and got things and charcteristics
that i willk keep and have forever. This year has made me be proud of who i'm. Of me. Nathalie.
i CAN fly by myself.
How and why?
This is question that we keep askingoiurselves after something terrible happends. But is there really an answer to, will it ever be an answer to it?
I doubt it. I can mention alot of happenings throughout just the last ten years that makes us ask these questions, but still we haven't got the answers to the how and why questions. Being here, is the US and sitting in an american classroom at the moment, i can't help but thinking about, what if it happens here? Is there any way that you can tell on the perosn that is planning this or is just an impulse, did this guy that killed 33 people at VA tech(including himself) just wake up Monday morning and then decided to kill his fellow students?
I woulden't know. I haven't been physically involved in a shooting, i haven't meet anyone that has done such a thing like this. But i'm asking you, take a secund and think about this, read about it, look at pictures and interviews, even videos that students taped while it was going on. Ask yourself what YOU can do. Not to help, but to prevent this, can we do something?
But also keep in mind that this haven't got to do with what religion you have, where you are from, how you look. Right now, about the VA tech shooting we don't really know THAT much. So just think about it all, and pray and think about the people killed, injured and their loved ones. What would YOU do if it happend to someone close to you?
I doubt it. I can mention alot of happenings throughout just the last ten years that makes us ask these questions, but still we haven't got the answers to the how and why questions. Being here, is the US and sitting in an american classroom at the moment, i can't help but thinking about, what if it happens here? Is there any way that you can tell on the perosn that is planning this or is just an impulse, did this guy that killed 33 people at VA tech(including himself) just wake up Monday morning and then decided to kill his fellow students?
I woulden't know. I haven't been physically involved in a shooting, i haven't meet anyone that has done such a thing like this. But i'm asking you, take a secund and think about this, read about it, look at pictures and interviews, even videos that students taped while it was going on. Ask yourself what YOU can do. Not to help, but to prevent this, can we do something?
But also keep in mind that this haven't got to do with what religion you have, where you are from, how you look. Right now, about the VA tech shooting we don't really know THAT much. So just think about it all, and pray and think about the people killed, injured and their loved ones. What would YOU do if it happend to someone close to you?
Keep going
I'm gonna keep writing under the friendship topic. I recieved and email this afternoon from one of my best friends she told me that she needed my help. Hellu, i'm STILL on the other side of the world. But fine, when it comes to my friends i try to do everything in my power that i possible can. And now it happend to be to help one of those friends that suprised me by showing how much she cares and loves me even though i'm not at home. I tried to do whatever i could.
I tried to be honest to her, yes Mom i know i always try that and not always for the best, but she deserves to here what i think. I had to remind her about something that we talked about...three years ago. I know her well enough to know that that's what she needed to hear. Friendships problems, friends leaving you for no reason is as hurtfull, if not more painfull then alot of things in this world. And hey, who said having friends is easy? Cause i sure as h-ll didn't.
We are all graduating this years, one way or another, and that is tears, sweat and blood. It hurts. Your heart and soul feel it and...something that you have wanted to happen for sooo long, why is it so painfull?
I woulden't know. All i know is that if someone is really your friend that's the time for both your sake and her/his sake, need to be there. We are not in kindergarden anymore, even though some people act like it.
I tried to be honest to her, yes Mom i know i always try that and not always for the best, but she deserves to here what i think. I had to remind her about something that we talked about...three years ago. I know her well enough to know that that's what she needed to hear. Friendships problems, friends leaving you for no reason is as hurtfull, if not more painfull then alot of things in this world. And hey, who said having friends is easy? Cause i sure as h-ll didn't.
We are all graduating this years, one way or another, and that is tears, sweat and blood. It hurts. Your heart and soul feel it and...something that you have wanted to happen for sooo long, why is it so painfull?
I woulden't know. All i know is that if someone is really your friend that's the time for both your sake and her/his sake, need to be there. We are not in kindergarden anymore, even though some people act like it.
Step it up.
Sometimes...
..Life makes me wonder. But even more often then that, people make me wonder. About life. I knew going in to this experience thing that it would show me true friends and friends that are jeoulous. I'm not gonna lie, it has been more then a few times when i wonder how some of these people could suprise me so much, over and over again.
We all have friends that are closer and friends that are just "there", if anything i thought that the friends that are just "there" were the ones that would suprise me,the ones that would be jeoulous and back away. But instead that's what one of my closest friends have done. WHY?
I don't seem to ever get an answer to that, i don't ever seem to get it. Instead of being jeoulous, instead of waisting our friendship and bond on that why not be happy for me, still share thigs with me and be a part of my life, in the best possible way. WHY is this not the case?
I know u didn't do anythin, I know that i didn't ruin things. I just want this person to be with me, happy with me, happy for me, share HER life with me, share HER feelings towards it, not hide things. It feels like she doesn't care anymore.Maybe thats how it is. Maybe i missed out on something. MAYBE i found the love of my life but lost the friend of a lifetime? Maybe...
This is what's called growing up.
I hope not, i love her too much. Cause i'm not gonna choose.
We all have friends that are closer and friends that are just "there", if anything i thought that the friends that are just "there" were the ones that would suprise me,the ones that would be jeoulous and back away. But instead that's what one of my closest friends have done. WHY?
I don't seem to ever get an answer to that, i don't ever seem to get it. Instead of being jeoulous, instead of waisting our friendship and bond on that why not be happy for me, still share thigs with me and be a part of my life, in the best possible way. WHY is this not the case?
I know u didn't do anythin, I know that i didn't ruin things. I just want this person to be with me, happy with me, happy for me, share HER life with me, share HER feelings towards it, not hide things. It feels like she doesn't care anymore.Maybe thats how it is. Maybe i missed out on something. MAYBE i found the love of my life but lost the friend of a lifetime? Maybe...
This is what's called growing up.
I hope not, i love her too much. Cause i'm not gonna choose.
It must be nice
Sunday. Yeah i know, not THAT excited about it. Or i wasen't. But...it was a really nice day. The sun was shining again, FINALLY, and it was about 70 in the sun(20 C) whiich i totally needed. I slept in, which i totally need too, and then i just had a delicious breakfast.
I spent the day with my boyfriend which was really nice, since i fell alseep last night when we were gonna have just a Nathalie and Chad day. My bad honey. We just sat in the sun, talked, fooled around and walked to Joakim's house. So not too much again. Hahaha.
Tomorrow is monday and back to business in school, just 12-13 days till my family gets here and i'm SOO excited, just to hug them all, just look at my brother face to face again. Ohh do i love that baby boy more then life itself? Yes i do.
Well, this kinda suck, not too much fun to read, i'm sorry, but it's late and i need to do my exercises, get my self-tan thingy on and go to bed. Ohh yeah, and talk to the best boyfriend in the world.
Monday again. Here we go.
(this is how my day will be tomorrow according to the stars!)
"A brainstorming session could lead to some interesting invitations of the romantic kind -- keep your cool when someone asks you something that you've been dying to be asked for a while now. It looks as though you're closer than ever to a goal you've been working toward (or a dream you've been wishing for). Are you prepared? Make sure your heart is ready to receive visitors -- and remind yourself what a treasure you have to share. Expect the best."
Well, honestly, dosen't tell my too much then I already knew ;-D Haha.
Saying hi to Lisa, Lars and Helena that stopped in to say hi on one of my comments!!! Se eyou in not too long!
I spent the day with my boyfriend which was really nice, since i fell alseep last night when we were gonna have just a Nathalie and Chad day. My bad honey. We just sat in the sun, talked, fooled around and walked to Joakim's house. So not too much again. Hahaha.
Tomorrow is monday and back to business in school, just 12-13 days till my family gets here and i'm SOO excited, just to hug them all, just look at my brother face to face again. Ohh do i love that baby boy more then life itself? Yes i do.
Well, this kinda suck, not too much fun to read, i'm sorry, but it's late and i need to do my exercises, get my self-tan thingy on and go to bed. Ohh yeah, and talk to the best boyfriend in the world.
Monday again. Here we go.
(this is how my day will be tomorrow according to the stars!)
"A brainstorming session could lead to some interesting invitations of the romantic kind -- keep your cool when someone asks you something that you've been dying to be asked for a while now. It looks as though you're closer than ever to a goal you've been working toward (or a dream you've been wishing for). Are you prepared? Make sure your heart is ready to receive visitors -- and remind yourself what a treasure you have to share. Expect the best."
Well, honestly, dosen't tell my too much then I already knew ;-D Haha.
Saying hi to Lisa, Lars and Helena that stopped in to say hi on one of my comments!!! Se eyou in not too long!
My day today
Well, i was up bright and early, and then i REALLY mean bright and early. But i ended up not doing what i'm supposed to do.
So so far i haven't done all too much.
Done: Been cleaning at Grandpa Rubens for graduation party
Wore: jeans, white sneaks and a grey sweatshirt
Plans for later: Hopefully return the jeans i bought the other day and then just hang out with my boyfriend, shich seems like it haven't been just US for a very looong time.
Ohh yeah, beacuse we are three people in our realtionship. Hahaha. Well, atleast that's what it feels like sometimes. But i will get over it.
Look at this food though, i wish that was MY meal for tonight. YUM!
Mat!
Time to go and get dressed again. jeans and a cute top? and gold flats...probably.
So so far i haven't done all too much.
Done: Been cleaning at Grandpa Rubens for graduation party
Wore: jeans, white sneaks and a grey sweatshirt
Plans for later: Hopefully return the jeans i bought the other day and then just hang out with my boyfriend, shich seems like it haven't been just US for a very looong time.
Ohh yeah, beacuse we are three people in our realtionship. Hahaha. Well, atleast that's what it feels like sometimes. But i will get over it.
Look at this food though, i wish that was MY meal for tonight. YUM!
Mat!
Time to go and get dressed again. jeans and a cute top? and gold flats...probably.
Their life's
Okay, so i've just been looking around at diffret web pages now, gossip, celebrities and stuff. And here are some hot stuff in their life.
Prince William of England and Kate Middleton breaks up after they have been dating for FIVE years. It's a mutual decision after that she feels that he dosen't priorotize her anymore. They have just gone two diffrent directions and she has had a really hard time lately to deal with the media preassure around their relationship(read speculations of engagement!)
- He is going to be the king of england, my boyfriend is the king of my HEART, now and forever. And we won't have any media preassure on us, atleast not now. Just wait til we are both out there, overtaking the world.
Reese Witherspon and Jake Gyllenhaal is now ON. Wow, yeah it's not like the most Hollywood couples that say "we are just friends" will end up being just friends. Just like tons of other couples around the world, the happy two just want to take it slow and enjoy the whole proces sof getting to know each other. GREAT decisions people.
But they will be one HOT couple on the red carpet if and when they walk on it together.
(Reese's and Jake)
Brad Pitt and his Girlfriend Angelina Jolie is fighting over Shiloh. Brad is frustrated that angelina don't care as much about shiloh as she does for her adopted kids. Every since she got home with her new son, Pax 3 years, she haven't even touched or hugged Shiloh. In frustration it's been said that Brad took Shiloh to one of their other houses to live with her there for a while since he is the one doing everything anyways. He has supposible said that Angelina dosen't even love Shiloh. WOW. Shocker. NOT. Brad, I could have told you months ago that sthaying with Jennifer would have been the best thing you could do. But I guess we will just have to see, is the wedding gonan be on again, or off forever now?
Last but not least, this time, is Gwen stefani that now says that she has been on a diet for her entire life. Okay, so i know you woulden't look THAT good without a diet. I'm sorry people but you can't eat whatever you want ALL the time and then expect to look like a sexy mama. Well, i sure can't, and i really don't even wish that that was the case. Gotta work hard to look hot. She says she contents herself with "all the healthy stuff" most of the time, "but I let myself cheat once or twice a day with a cookie or pizza."
There we go, if she can cheat with it so can WE. I just say DO IT, bikini season here we come!
That will work, beutiful!
Prince William of England and Kate Middleton breaks up after they have been dating for FIVE years. It's a mutual decision after that she feels that he dosen't priorotize her anymore. They have just gone two diffrent directions and she has had a really hard time lately to deal with the media preassure around their relationship(read speculations of engagement!)
- He is going to be the king of england, my boyfriend is the king of my HEART, now and forever. And we won't have any media preassure on us, atleast not now. Just wait til we are both out there, overtaking the world.
Reese Witherspon and Jake Gyllenhaal is now ON. Wow, yeah it's not like the most Hollywood couples that say "we are just friends" will end up being just friends. Just like tons of other couples around the world, the happy two just want to take it slow and enjoy the whole proces sof getting to know each other. GREAT decisions people.
But they will be one HOT couple on the red carpet if and when they walk on it together.
(Reese's and Jake)
Brad Pitt and his Girlfriend Angelina Jolie is fighting over Shiloh. Brad is frustrated that angelina don't care as much about shiloh as she does for her adopted kids. Every since she got home with her new son, Pax 3 years, she haven't even touched or hugged Shiloh. In frustration it's been said that Brad took Shiloh to one of their other houses to live with her there for a while since he is the one doing everything anyways. He has supposible said that Angelina dosen't even love Shiloh. WOW. Shocker. NOT. Brad, I could have told you months ago that sthaying with Jennifer would have been the best thing you could do. But I guess we will just have to see, is the wedding gonan be on again, or off forever now?
Last but not least, this time, is Gwen stefani that now says that she has been on a diet for her entire life. Okay, so i know you woulden't look THAT good without a diet. I'm sorry people but you can't eat whatever you want ALL the time and then expect to look like a sexy mama. Well, i sure can't, and i really don't even wish that that was the case. Gotta work hard to look hot. She says she contents herself with "all the healthy stuff" most of the time, "but I let myself cheat once or twice a day with a cookie or pizza."
There we go, if she can cheat with it so can WE. I just say DO IT, bikini season here we come!
That will work, beutiful! The people i love!
My babes, Jeri & Savannah. <3 
Heather my "sister" in Sutton, Nebraska 
All my girls in Sweden, love you sweeties! 
Dalia my sexy lover! 
My Mom and I, my bestest friend! 
My Dad and I 
My Bonus Dad, I love you sooo much!
My female other half of me. 
4/5 of my hostfamil! <3 
My life, my heart and my soulmate! 
My baby love, My brother "Lu". 
Jackie my LOVE! This is my loves(with some people not in it cause i don't have pics of them!).
Love is
Love is very patient and kind,
never jealous or envious,
never boastful or proud,
never haughty or selfish or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
It is not irritable or touchy.
It does not hold grudges
and will hardly even notice
when others do it wrong.
It is never glad about injustice,
but rejoices whenever truth wins out.
If you love someone you
will be loyal to him
no matter what the cost.
You will always believe in him,
Always expect the best of him
and always stand your ground
in defending him.
All the special gifts
and powers from God
will someday come to an end,
but love goes on forever.
This is why our love is what it is. I love you with all of my heart and soul Chad Broderick Sheridan, you are my dream come true.
Sooo, i was gonna try to talk to my Dad tonight, but i guess he is a busy man now. And guess what? That makes me SOOO happy. I want my dad to fall inlove, i want him to be loved and love someone. I want him to share his life with someone that deserves it, i want him to feel what i feel. I want him to wake up with someone who adores him and find him the best thing in her life. I love my Dad more then i could ever say and he is an spectacular person and he deserves everything he ever wants and gets in life. And i know he will find it.
He also emailed me and told me how proud he is over me, not only for who i'm buyt for what my dreams, goals and life is and will be. My family is my all, and in that family we have someone knew, someone that will forever stay with us and always be a part of us. My boyfriend. I know i will, because i already have, meet people that think it's weird, how can i love him so much already? But thinking about it, what is already really? He has been my all since i went to the US, he has never let me down, never hurt me and always been by my side. I believe in true love and true love is what we have! I believe that we will make our own, and our shared, dreams come true. I know we will. Like it or not.
Didn't want to be too serious. But love comes in everty shape and color, just like these two.
never jealous or envious,
never boastful or proud,
never haughty or selfish or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
It is not irritable or touchy.
It does not hold grudges
and will hardly even notice
when others do it wrong.
It is never glad about injustice,
but rejoices whenever truth wins out.
If you love someone you
will be loyal to him
no matter what the cost.
You will always believe in him,
Always expect the best of him
and always stand your ground
in defending him.
All the special gifts
and powers from God
will someday come to an end,
but love goes on forever.
This is why our love is what it is. I love you with all of my heart and soul Chad Broderick Sheridan, you are my dream come true.
Sooo, i was gonna try to talk to my Dad tonight, but i guess he is a busy man now. And guess what? That makes me SOOO happy. I want my dad to fall inlove, i want him to be loved and love someone. I want him to share his life with someone that deserves it, i want him to feel what i feel. I want him to wake up with someone who adores him and find him the best thing in her life. I love my Dad more then i could ever say and he is an spectacular person and he deserves everything he ever wants and gets in life. And i know he will find it.
He also emailed me and told me how proud he is over me, not only for who i'm buyt for what my dreams, goals and life is and will be. My family is my all, and in that family we have someone knew, someone that will forever stay with us and always be a part of us. My boyfriend. I know i will, because i already have, meet people that think it's weird, how can i love him so much already? But thinking about it, what is already really? He has been my all since i went to the US, he has never let me down, never hurt me and always been by my side. I believe in true love and true love is what we have! I believe that we will make our own, and our shared, dreams come true. I know we will. Like it or not.
Didn't want to be too serious. But love comes in everty shape and color, just like these two.
WOW
The weather at the moment is not as fun as i wish it was, with approximately 35 F, which is WAAAAY to cold. Atleast after yesterdays outside activities i hoped that it would heat up a bit. It would make life alot easier. Because now you have to wear sweaters on top of everything and after a loooong winter i'm so sick of it. I just want to put a pair of shorts or jeans on a cute top and go, go, go. But i guess not.
Talked to my boyfriend and it seems like we are gonna go and buy some jeans tonight, but thinking about it there is soooo many things i want to do, i want to color my hair, buy jeans, do my nails. OHHH I CAN"T WAIT TO START WORKING! And i know, people keep telling me that when i'm actually working you don't want to work at all, i gues si woulden't know that at the moment.
Back to the weather, i don't know why, but i'm already looking for houses/apartments for rent in Phoneix, Arizona, and there is some really nice ones and hey, they weather is AMAZING! Arizona here we come baby...just wait. Speaking of houses, when i get back home, my home will have been moved, i guess our apartment is too big, esapcially since i wont be there for that much longet, it's sad, but reality. And since we are getting so close to that i'm thinking about gifts to get some of my girls, the ones closests to me, cause i'm not made out of money, if i was everyne would get something...! FOR SURE!
Talked to my boyfriend and it seems like we are gonna go and buy some jeans tonight, but thinking about it there is soooo many things i want to do, i want to color my hair, buy jeans, do my nails. OHHH I CAN"T WAIT TO START WORKING! And i know, people keep telling me that when i'm actually working you don't want to work at all, i gues si woulden't know that at the moment.
Back to the weather, i don't know why, but i'm already looking for houses/apartments for rent in Phoneix, Arizona, and there is some really nice ones and hey, they weather is AMAZING! Arizona here we come baby...just wait. Speaking of houses, when i get back home, my home will have been moved, i guess our apartment is too big, esapcially since i wont be there for that much longet, it's sad, but reality. And since we are getting so close to that i'm thinking about gifts to get some of my girls, the ones closests to me, cause i'm not made out of money, if i was everyne would get something...! FOR SURE!
Yes, this is something we could acyually afford a apartment at
what is impossible for some is possible for others!
So, i think that i have this MAJOR problem. I NEED to get new jeans, all my jeans i already have dosen't fit as well as they should, they make me look fat and olike i just want to get in a certain size. Sometimes maybe that is the reason, maybe it is. I don't like the fact that that's how i think sometimes, more then alot of times. But as a girl that is 18 years old, almoust 19, it is natural that hips grow, and that's what happend. Not in a way that is fat, my hips are just wider. Like it or not it is a fact and something i better just get used to living with. And i guess that's were i'm at, i know i'm about to leave and i know that my body has changed, i just want to look as good as possible when coming back, i know i'm hot. I do, deep down. Andy my boyfriend gladly point that out to me more then he realloy should or "HAVE" too. I love him for that, even more, if possible. But back to my BIG jeans problem. I so, so, so BADLY want new jeans, but i don't know if i have the money for it, and that is the REAL problem. What should i do?! I NEED help. Finally accepting my hips, that is gonna be there forevere, i just want to dress so that they look good, so that I look good in my "NEW" hips.
Someone that could help me out here, what should i do. MAJOR problem.
Well, i should get back to class first of all, and do my assignment, then just a few more hours in school and after that, MAJOR problem comes back.
She's got hips but it dosen't seem to bother her at all!
Someone that could help me out here, what should i do. MAJOR problem.
Well, i should get back to class first of all, and do my assignment, then just a few more hours in school and after that, MAJOR problem comes back.
She's got hips but it dosen't seem to bother her at all!
Mind thinking.
So, beeing at a track meet all day have made me think about alot of things. For ex. what do you think about running the 1600 or even the 3200?
It beats me. But i guess that's why i don't do it too though. I'm not a runner, and never will be, i like to run on a tredmill to stay in shape, but my back can't handle running outside so i enjoy running inside alot more now. I usuall watch TV when i run, just to don't think about that i'm actually RUNNING. To me working out, going to the gym, lifting weights, going for a run or whatever you do is relaxation, it blocks my thoughts out and if i'm mad i will take it out on lifting or running. Maybe this sounds weird, but it is like therapy, therapy for your mind.
But anyways...now to more fun things.
We are almoust already half way into April and time passes as fast as ever before. In les sthen three weeks my parents are coming to visit me and see my friends, host family, boyfriend and his family and the enviroment i have been living in for the past, soon to be, 9 months.
And before i know it, sadly, it will be time for me to leave. Go back to Sweden. A part of me is sooo excited t come home to see my friends, to see Emma, Alexandra and Helene and all the other people, but another part of me, a side i didn't really know, don't want to leave. I will miss Sutton and all the people. Of curse i will. I have lived here for almoust a year, it has been my home for that long. I guess i know that i'm coming back though, and soon too, December is not THAT far away. It will be fun(but we can cover that some other day!).
I need to get warmed up now, Beeing out for 7 hours in 30 F(-0 C) for the hole day, is killing me, i'm COLD!
Time for food and heat! :-D
It beats me. But i guess that's why i don't do it too though. I'm not a runner, and never will be, i like to run on a tredmill to stay in shape, but my back can't handle running outside so i enjoy running inside alot more now. I usuall watch TV when i run, just to don't think about that i'm actually RUNNING. To me working out, going to the gym, lifting weights, going for a run or whatever you do is relaxation, it blocks my thoughts out and if i'm mad i will take it out on lifting or running. Maybe this sounds weird, but it is like therapy, therapy for your mind.
But anyways...now to more fun things.
We are almoust already half way into April and time passes as fast as ever before. In les sthen three weeks my parents are coming to visit me and see my friends, host family, boyfriend and his family and the enviroment i have been living in for the past, soon to be, 9 months.
And before i know it, sadly, it will be time for me to leave. Go back to Sweden. A part of me is sooo excited t come home to see my friends, to see Emma, Alexandra and Helene and all the other people, but another part of me, a side i didn't really know, don't want to leave. I will miss Sutton and all the people. Of curse i will. I have lived here for almoust a year, it has been my home for that long. I guess i know that i'm coming back though, and soon too, December is not THAT far away. It will be fun(but we can cover that some other day!).
I need to get warmed up now, Beeing out for 7 hours in 30 F(-0 C) for the hole day, is killing me, i'm COLD!
Time for food and heat! :-D
Smells
Okay, yeah I know that it sounds weird. New smells, what? But honestly, if you take a second or two to think about it , what a person smells, what scent he or she gives out is a big part of your first impression of that person, isn't? And also, what you, yourself smell like, what your scent is. Thinking back of times when me and my girlfriends were out shopping and one of them found this really nice perfume she would say "I can't get that, it smells like ___" . At the time i didn't pay to much attention to this(yes we left the store just about after that) but thinking about it now i realize that it's true. I have three perfumes that i LOVE, absolutely love, and yes, they smell like ME. And i like it. My Mom changes perfume from now and then but she always gets something that smells close to her old one, and that is what make her smell like Mom. If she wears something TOTALLY diffrent i would notice it as soon as she stepped into the room. My mom smells like....Mom.
The same things goes with my Boyfriend, he smells like just he can do, and if/when someone else is using the same cologne that he is i can tell right away, but it dosen't smell like HIM. I love my boyfriend and i lov ethe way he smells, just because it's him. But...
...I have this one scent that i absolutely, ABSOLUTELY, would love for him to have and since his b-day is coming up before i leave, that might be something to think about for him. Or is that an insult? I don't know. I will let you know how he takes it.
The same things goes with my Boyfriend, he smells like just he can do, and if/when someone else is using the same cologne that he is i can tell right away, but it dosen't smell like HIM. I love my boyfriend and i lov ethe way he smells, just because it's him. But...
...I have this one scent that i absolutely, ABSOLUTELY, would love for him to have and since his b-day is coming up before i leave, that might be something to think about for him. Or is that an insult? I don't know. I will let you know how he takes it.
I used to have this dream..
There will be people passing in and out of your life, there will people not liking your friends, liking your boyfriend/girlfriend, the classes you take or the school you want to go to, there will be people trying to get you to do something they want you to do not what YOU want to do. There will be people telling you not to follow your heart, follow your head, there will be people saying that you should learn from THEIR mistakes. But till you have been there, till you feel that, you know what you are really fighthing for. If it is a friend, a lover, your family or your sister or brother...you will just know
Dreaming
I used to dream of eyes so blue
And loving arms to hold me.
I used to dream of heroic knights
And how gracious they would be.
I used to dream of how I wouldn?t settle
For anything less than best.
I used to dream of how he would majestically
Lay all fears to rest.
I used to dream of fairy tales,
How wondrous would they be
I used to dream of story books
All patterned after me.
I used to dream of a lot of things,
But the moment I met you,
I immediately stopped dreaming,
Because all of my dreams came true.
You are my dreams come true! 
Dreaming
I used to dream of eyes so blue
And loving arms to hold me.
I used to dream of heroic knights
And how gracious they would be.
I used to dream of how I wouldn?t settle
For anything less than best.
I used to dream of how he would majestically
Lay all fears to rest.
I used to dream of fairy tales,
How wondrous would they be
I used to dream of story books
All patterned after me.
I used to dream of a lot of things,
But the moment I met you,
I immediately stopped dreaming,
Because all of my dreams came true.
You are my dreams come true! Welcome to my new blogg!
My name is Nathalie Nystrom and this is MY page. I will tell you about whatever is on my mind to what i want to do. This is a private blogg and if you don't have anything good to say don't say it at all!
Nathalie
Nathalie
